need to remember to go to the queer centre on 17th

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it's so insane expecting me, the bitch who titles my wips and google docs with keysmashes because I can't pick a fucking name, to title every post I make on here but oh well. also I think I might be getting too codependent on google. docs, youtube, now this...well at least it's all free. and convenient. at least I don't exclusively use hangouts to text people anymore. 

anyway. woke up relatively early today. had blueberry pancakes. one of my fav fic authors updated so I read the new chapter and went down for a walk. the weather is rad today. im sitting in the park listening to the lagaan soundtrack as I write this.

also my sister compared this new blogger endeavour to a smoker using nicotine patches to quit. lol.
hopefully I can finish my arc (the beauty of us, farzana doctor) and some other reading today. im currently reading the trauma of caste (thenmozhi soundarajan). so that. maybe. 

have some flowers I just passed on my walk x

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